Breathe

Round 7: 2005-2008

Narrated by Alexandra Hayes

Things between me and Carlo were going great. I don't know why everyone kept telling me that it's not going to work. I knew he had other women before but it's not like I was all innocent either. I told him about what happened with Sebastian years ago but that was before Carlo and I got serious. We decided that from now on there won't be other people in this relationship. We are engaged after all. And as it turned out, I'm pregnant!

But the next day I found out - the hard way - that Carlo didn't mean a word he said. I came home from work and I found him in bed with our landlady! I couldn't believe my eyes. I guess my mother was right when she told me not to trust him.

That was it for me! I was ready to look the other way before we got engaged but not anymore. He promised to change but he didn't. It broke my heart to tell him it was over.

Carlo didn't take it well either. He kept apologizing but I just couldn't even look at him anymore.

I did miss him though. I cried for days and days. I hadn't even told my family yet that I was about to become a single mum.

This isn't exactly how I had imagined my first pregnancy. Being all alone. I'm not going to shut Carlo out of our baby's life but I don't know if I can take him back.

I finally invited my family over for dinner. It was obvious for them that I'm pregnant - seeing as I'm as big as a whale. Mom and Patrick took the pregnancy news pretty well but I decided to wait until we had eaten before I told them that Carlo was no longer in the picture.

I didn't want Thomas and Stephen to hear so I pulled mom away from them and told her. She was shocked but she said she understood my decision.

She also told me that I could always come back home if I wanted to. And if I wanted to stay here she and Patrick would help me. Her support means a lot to me.

I could also tell that she was pretty excited about becoming a grandmother!

Carlo got an apartment in the same building. He comes over quite often and we've talked quite a lot. I've started to think that maybe we could eventually get back together.

My feelings for Chrystal, the landlady, haven't changed though. I don't understand how she has the nerve to come to my apartment like she was invited in! And she won't even leave when I tell her to!

Maybe it was the fight with Chrystal or the fact that I was ready to pop but I went into labor pretty soon after confronting her.

We had twin boys, Aaron Patrick and Ethan Victor. Their middle names are a tribute to my parents who have always been there for me.

I realized pretty quickly that it's not very easy to be a single mum especially when you have two babies. Aaron and Ethan always start crying at the same time and I don't know which one I should take care of first. It was a constant battle.

On Sunday afternoon I was just feeding Ethan when there was a knock on the door. I put the baby back in his crib and went to open. There was a police officer who told me that he had bad news.

I didn't know what to expect but I sure didn't expect this: he told me that Carlo had passed away in the morning! I felt like my world would come to an end. He was only 49 years old! The police said that they weren't sure of the cause of death yet but it did appear natural.

I got his urn and finally realized that it was true. He wouldn't come back ever again.

I'm trying to put on a happy face for the twins. I have to concentrate on their happiness now.

Notes:

• Title "Breathe by Blu Cantrell" featuring Sean Paul
• This became a much sadder update than I had planned. After the breakup something weird happened and Lexie became like possessed (started jumping and spinning around) everytime Carlo appeared. Maybe he got corrupted or something, I really don't know. I tried to fix it in many many ways but nothing worked. And of course my last backup of the neighborhood was from April and I didn't feel like re-playing two rounds. So it was goodbye Carlo. I'd rather sacrifice him than the whole hood.
• I'm almost finished with round 7 and I think I'll continue straight to round 8. I simply don't have time to play during the week because I'm doing extra hours at work but I try to update as often as I can.